There's this thing about staring into the peak of the mountain every morning that put my heart at ease. Its beautiful, of course, but there's more to it than just that. The mountain, the clouds that sometime block my view to the peak, the slowly but surely rising sun, the quiet morning, the everyday different birds chirping... They're proofs that this, life and everything, is always moving; changing; shifting.
Have you ever thought about having a problem that will lasts forever but then the next day it was magically solved and you felt the burden on your shoulder lifted up somehow? Yeah, I often felt that way too. Its not magic, its just God's way of making things happen; Kun Fayakun. To deny God's Divine intervention is to deny life itself. I mean, how do you think this all happened? Somebody does not just woke up one day and thought that the universe was formed by The Big Bang, it was with God's permission that he could have had that thought. It was with God's permission that the Universe exists in the first place.
So is with our successes and failures, even though, technically, we are the ones who called it those, you know, we named it successes and failures; according to whatever situation that we think suits us. I mean, as human, we never know for sure which condition will arise from what. One day you called it a success but it drifts you apart from the things you hold dear, or things that you should love. One day you called it a failure but somehow it brings you closer to a happier, wiser, a content version of yourself. There's this Ayat in The Quran (Surah Al Baqara:216) that means, "But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.", and its true. For example, when I was in grade 3, at the first day of going to the Quran class, I got beaten with rotan jawa by my teacher. He told me that the way I recited the Ayat was wrong. I cried, of course and told my parents what happened; my parents, contrary to what I thought they would do, sent me back to the class every afternoon everyday. At that moment, I despise it, but after going back and forth from home to the Quran class, I started to actually like my teacher and his teaching. At first, I did not understand that what he did was for my own good, and of course, reciting the Quran wrongly is a big NO. I also came to understand the reason why my parents sent me back to the Quran class was not to "punish" me but because they're good parents who wants me to understand God's language and that studying is important. If I had actually left that class, maybe I wouldn't be too fond of my religion. Or not won that Da'i Cilik Maluku 2006 competition. My teacher's name was Ustadz Ali Fauzi, we usually called him Bib, and to date; Bib is still my 2nd favorite teacher, after Opa Thahir Tuanaya.
The other examples come from many people, even maybe from people close to you, for example a very good friend of mine, Wintang, just said yesterday, "here you see, I did went to college later than other people, but because of that I met him and fell in love (mentioning her lover's name)" and she did! not only that, her grades are also very good, I think that the fact her being "late" to study in medical school, give her more energy and effort to study more than the other friends. If she were to be admitted at what we think is "on time" to medical school, I do not think that she will have the kind of energy and understanding that she has now. I also think that if she hadn't been "late" to medical school, I wouldn't have the chance to know her, to look up to her and even to have the conversation we had yesterday that inspired me to write this post right now. Steve Jobs also mentioned something related to this on his commencement speech at Stanford; "You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something." It has been my favourite quote since I first discovered the video on YouTube, because Jobs was right. The fact that we're not fortune teller or that we're not born with super power to foresee the future make us clueless creatures. Yes we can assume, predict or stress the future, but what can actually happen in the future is not something that we can stir. Jobs told us that you have to believe in something, and I think it is best to believe in The Greatest, The All-Knowing; Allah knows what is best and when is best for us. All we have to do now is try and pray, ask Him for whatever is best for us and keep having a good faith that whatever happen is because Allah wishes so, and to keep striving for a Good End.